this end now
posted on Thursday, April 16, 2009 @ 6:14 AM

i made myself think.
now i want this to end..
this stupid dreadful feeling that i've keept inside of me fer so long.
this stupid longing fer something..
its so dumb larhh...idk what i want..
and that the thing that drove me not to sleep and stay up all night..
parents thought i hang on the phone the whole freaking night..but that aint true..
i just cant freaking sleep..
and i think that the stupid problem with me..
i think i needa buy sleeping pill..ahaha..then let me die in my own sleep..muahahaha..
freaking self wont behave itself...
most of my fwens notice the diff side of me..
this stressful side of me..
it got nothing to do with boys..and totally nothing to do with family..
i think its just the matter of mixing around with people..
this world sickens me..
but i guess i needa time to fit in..