ups and downs....
posted on Tuesday, April 14, 2009 @ 5:49 AM
didn't go school have my own reason okay..hehehe
but the good thing to hear is...
they freaking miss me...fine2 guys....I'll go school tomorrow..promise..
yeah yeah syidah..i will go to school..
stop worrying^^hehehe.
i don't want to be alone anymore..
i know being alone is good in a way...
in a sense that you don't bother other people..
and they don't really care if you are there..
but now i see that people do care bout me..
and I'm never alone..
why am i always trap in my own thoughts...
but why do i feel this way.
does things started out from last year...
when i started withdrawing myself from others..
do i hate myself fer this?...hell yeah i do okay..
but why people still care fer me?i know where i stand..
im never that popular to be mixing around with..
do i ask fer attention in class?..maybe i did sometimes..
do i think to much that it hurts my head..
yeah i still have that stupid headache problem...
do people miss me?...i never think of that..but now i guess they do...but why?
my thoughts are running wild...and it hurts the hell outta me...
i admit im scared..but i can never show it..
cause i dont want to..
whatever dyra...gotta be thinking straight now!!!
DYRA WAKE UP!!!
(NOTE TO SELF..THIS IS MY NOTE TO SELF...hehehehehe)