suicide note from SeiryLiar
posted on Tuesday, October 6, 2009 @ 12:38 AM
Thanks fer the memories,the pain, the lies, and finally thanks fer calling me a liar.
Wasn't it heartbreaking when things started to fall apart.
We promised not to hurt each other, but we did somehow
All I thought was I could trust you.
I wanted you so badly, the only person I could talked to.
But now you turn your back on me to.
Wasn't I hurt by my parents that bad already, hurting myself to drown that feeling of wanting to die.
I hurt myself so badly that I wanted to go insane that moment, I wanted to bled and die but
ended up blue-black on my arms after hitting myself.
And you snapped me out of it
You saved me from committing suicide.
It all started when you thought I lie to you.
Like I promised you that I'll meet up with you.
But the truth is, I didn't really promised.
I told you I'll tried my best to meet up with you.
And I've told you that I couldn't kept any promises.
And its not like you're gonna die if we don't meet up.
Great... everyone's calling me a liar now.
My parents don't trust me now.
You don't trust me now
No one trust me now
WTF....
I know I am a misunderstood girl.
A really sad girl who covers her really problems behind a smile.
I feel like dying now.
And I'm alone at last.
Was things really suppose to end this way?
The word 'sorry' doesn't seems to go through you anymore.
I guess you got numb to that now.
If you didn't save me that day, I might have gone insane.
I might have lay in my own blood with eyes wide open.
And be covered in it.
I know my mates will feel bad if I go.
Life wouldn't be fun without me.
'cause I've always been the joker of the group.
And always crack up a lame joke and they laugh at it
Though I hate school, it's the only place I could feel happy and free.
Home...
the only place i can rot away is my room
The only place to express myself.
Unfortunately less time is spent in it and lots were lost in argument.
My head feel like breaking up.
But I know I'm strong.
I can survive this.
I can survive this.
lol...damn bored the other day and started writing craps..lol
niwae...fought with mom a couple of daes ago.
and i hurt myself..
make my arm blue-black..
but kinda okay luhh...
2nd day still blue-black but it doesnt hurt.
the one on my arm kinda really big..
the one on my wrist are gonna gone soon.
damn feel like doing it again.
that day arguement almost make me go insane.
i laugh and cry at the same time.
and i clawed my other arm.
but too bad that my nails are short...
if not..
i'll be scarred on the other arm.