faces
posted on Saturday, February 20, 2010 @ 5:19 AM
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things been okay and not so okay lately.well hasn't it always like that?its getting sucky at school and i'm starting to see who i should be most of the time and stay away from.
i'm getting lazy to talk to those who i would usually talk to in school. and yeah i might as well be anti-social again, its the best way since i've seen most people changing and myself changing too..
i know most people just won't be able to understand why i'm getting more angrier and violent nowadays. i know that the "monster" inside of me just haven't have it fun yet.
it still wants more. it wants everything..ain't that scary. making me go insane everytime.
im just sick of how things are, and how you starting to behave towards me in class. makes me wanna chew you up for freaking god sake change larh!! but not change and become me u fucking ass.
i hate you now. how you look soo fucking pathetic and act like my own shadow.you're not my fucking Dog.
please from what i see, you're only making things worst even for your own good.
doesn't everyone have their own sense of imperfectness.why still bother with our own flaw.
the truth i do still love him and i missed him dearly. but i have to forget bout him right? we're just friends right? was that day when we decided to meet up was a mistake?
i kept on thinking bout you even though someone else is trying his best to take your place in my heart, i find it impossible to just erase you from my memories. everyone just tell me to forget you,but i cant.
i wanna meet you again and smile each time i see that sheepish smile of yours.
you made my heart go Rawrr! you're my angel
everyone, im sorry if i've been so mean towards you guys and i made everyone worry.
i know im depressed. think its fun to be depressed? yeah it was at first, but when time fly by, it just make me question myself, why the hell did i go depressed for?
i even got people thinking that i love getting myself depressed. fuck i aint like that.
i wanna change. i wanna be myself. the old me. the one that most of my friends like.
why am i getting into all sorta stupid situation. do people really hate me even though i do nothing to em.Fuck em all!
tc lil puppets
xoxo